SPN 5x01

[tarod45]

I'm torn.

No, really. I'm so, so torn.

I... can't decide if I forgive Dean or not.

'Cause, starting out? I totally forgave him. His refusal to let Sam wallow was everything I could have hoped for. He won my Awesome Brother of the Year Award for that.

His final speech, though? I very much feel like I should revoke my forgiveness. And yet. I do understand where he's coming from. And I feel more sympathy for his angst than I did in the entirety of S4. Perhaps it's 'cause, this time, they're not overplaying it. Although, I kinda got whiplash from his "everything's alright" straight into "well, actually, now that you mention it, it's not alright and never will be."

Seriously, though. He deserves to have my forgiveness revoked just for not punching possessed!Bobby in the face after what he said about Sam.

So, yeah, torn about that.

In other news: Almost everything else about this episode was awesome-sauce!

I'm a little leery of God being in the picture, yes. And I continue to find Dean's interactions with Zachariah to be annoyingly crude. (Angel condom? Really?)

On the other hand.

I'm rather surprised, but relieved, that Dean seems to have gotten over his "Let me throw myself under a bus and just cause more trouble in the long run in order to ensure the physical well-being of my loved ones" habit of days past. The fact that he was willing to let both Bobby and Sam die, rather than give his consent to be Michael's host? Made me happier than I ever thought something like that would.

Castiel's brief appearance was mercifully brief. It's not that I dislike Castiel, mind you. It's just... I don't want him stealing screen-time from Sam the boys. And I am perhaps still bitter that Dean gets to keep his sidekick, while Sam lost his in my single least-favorite scene of the whole series. I still miss you, Ruby!

I love, love, love that Sam did, in fact, learn some witchcraft from Ruby. I'm holding out extreme hope that he's still demon-y, or at least that we get some honest-to-god psychic powers this season.

Moving on, there was... her. Yeah. Sam's #1 fan. On the one hand: how mortifying. On the other: OH MY GOD, THEY ACTUALLY WENT THERE! I just about died laughing. 'Cause A: Wincest. B: bad Wincest. And C: the Sam-touching! I kinda adored the way she was just so overwhelmed by Sam's oh-so-firm chest, and flat-out refused to stop touching it. I COULD RELATE, YES I COULD.

Then there was the other "her." Ah, dear, sweet Meg. It's so good to see you again! When she first showed up, I was kind with Dean, with the "Ruby Mark 3?" (Or are we up to Mark 4? I dunno, maybe 5? Do we count the secretary and the maid?) But then I though, naw, that's silly: it must be Meg! And so it was. I have to say, I'm rather sad that she abandoned that meatsuit -- I think I would have been quite happy with that actress playing Meg all season.

Speaking of meatsuits: I liked Soon-to-be-Lucy, who is not longer soon to be. Yes, I know his name is Nick. I preferred calling him "Soon-to-be-Lucy" while it lasted. Anyway. I liked him. I felt for him. I also like Lucifer, so far. I don't know how much I believe him/her -- Father of Lies, and all. And I'm not sure at all whether this talk of getting justice on God is actually going to involve an apocalypse or not. It'd be kinda cool if Lucifer did just want to go after God, and destroying the world and bringing hell on earth wasn't really part of his game plan. I doubt they'll do that, although the pointlessly rampaging devil thing would be so boring.

What I'm really hoping, though, is that the Yosemite Sam cartoon was foreshadowing and Lucy really does have plans for our Sammy.

Before I end, I'll finally mention that I'm rather intrigued that Kripke & Co have once again brought up the Problem of Evil. I wonder if they're going to venture a resolution to it? Since God does seem to be back and taking an active interest in events.

Final conclusion: Excellent, powerful ep, though it did leave me with some mixed feelings.

In non-story related news, how annoyed am I that I have class until 9 on Thursdays this semester? THIS annoyed. And this was not helped by the Steelers game being on at the same time today. (And I forgot to wear my jersey! I got on the bus this morning, and everyone was wearing a jersey, and I realized I'd totally forgot to wear mine! It's a Roethlisberger one. I love it, and I forgot to wear it, and I feel like a really bad Steelers fan. Oh well. They won, anyway, even without my psychic support. And dude, how cool was it, driving home, and looking out over the bridge, and seeing Heinz Field all lit up?)

And now, the question becomes, to sleep, or not to sleep? I have to be awake in about four hours, and I'm not sure it's worth it. My life is filled with such difficulties.