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tarod45Oh, thank god, the week from hell is over. (And if I never have to dress up in that monkey suit again, it'll be too soon. Except for how that monkey suit cost a fortune, and I'd sure as hell better get more than one wear out of it.)
Now begins... you guessed it, the week from hell, redux. Well, not that bad, really. The G-20's gonna be in town on Thursday and Friday, and classes are mostly canceled. Those that aren't? Yeah, I foresee me coming down with a G-20-induced case of swine flu, if you know what I mean. No way am I going anywhere near campus when Michelle Obama is hosting a dinner party for 20 world leaders two blocks away. Traffic and security would be a nightmare. That's not even figuring the press who are prolly gonna be clogging the streets.
Anyway, I finally got to see SPN 5x02.
Oh. Oh dear. Oh my baby boys.
This is a good thing, I firmly believe. The boys need some time alone, time to get perspective, and to remember how much they really mean to one another, and how utterly, thoroughly miserable they were without each other. (Except for how Sam wasn't actually miserable without Dean back in the days when he was emotionally healthy.) Obviously, Show can't keep its two leading characters, whose relationship is the entire foundation of the story, apart for very long. I give it one episode, maybe two. And then there will be a tearful reunion.
That being said, if said tearful reunion does not include Dean looking deep into Sam's eyes and telling him that this whole thing where it's all Sam's fault about the apocalypse? Is not all Sam's fault? Then all my growing goodwill towards Dean is gone, and we're back to me resenting the hell out of him.
Cause seriously. Why is everyone just going along with Sam's massive guilt trip? Yes, I can see where Sam feels guilty. I think he's wrong to, but I can definitely see why he does. But what did he actually do that puts him more at fault than practically anyone else who was even remotely involved? He killed Lilith. He did so in a way that, alright, fine, he can legitimately feel guilty about that, but the actual apocalypse-starting? Was because he killed Lilith. Did he know that killing Lilith would break the final seal? Did Dean's magical innate wisdom mean that he knew that killing Lilith would break the seal? Did Dean have any intention of doing anything other than killing Lilith, given the opportunity? The answer, as you may have noticed, to all of these questions is "no." Both Sam and Dean thought that killing Lilith would stop the apocalypse. Dean's only objections to Sam killing Lilith was the method he was using, and the fact that Sam was going with Ruby instead of him.
Lucifer rising was Sam's fault because Sam trusted Ruby and the angels, and killed Lilith, thinking he was stopping the apocalypse.
It was also Dean's fault for a) breaking the first seal, and b) for being just as taken in re: killing Lilith. It was Azazel, Lilith, and Ruby's faults for engineering the whole thing to begin with. It was Zachariah and Castiel's faults for helping to engineer the whole thing, and facilitating it as they did. It was Chuck's fault for not telling Sam what was going to happen. It was Bobby's fault for not telling Sam and Dean often enough that they're idiots. It was John's fault for raising his kids (Dean in particular) to be codependent freaks who just can't leave the natural order of things alone. It was Mary's fault for getting the whole thing rolling with her deal.
It's the end of the world. There's blame to go around. It's not all Sam's fault. And it pisses me off that no one other than Sam is accepting any responsibility. It's like everyone is wiping their foreheads, saying, "Well, Sam's willing to take all the heat, so I guess that means I'm off the hook." I call bullshit. And Dean should, too. God knows, he's never hesitated to take the blame for stuff he wasn't at all responsible for, why stop now with something that he is at least as responsible for as Sam?
I really didn't mean for that to turn into yet another rant.
Anyway.
Good to see Ellen and Jo again. Ellen, especially. Loved how she chewed Dean out for never calling. Show does love its meta.
Once again, Castiel's scene was mercifully brief. Eyes were rolled over the fact that, oh yeah, the completely random amulet that Sam gave Dean as a Christmas present thirteen years before, and heretofore has had only sentimental significance, is actually a super-special God-hunting amulet. Cute as I thought Dean's reluctance to hand over the amulet was, I am just a tad puzzled at Sam's complete silence during the whole encounter. Funny how Sam seems to cease to exist as a character whenever Castiel's in the room, right? *bitter*
Also: YAY, FOUR HORSEMEN! Death had better be a motherfucking skeleton, that's all I'm saying. That, or played by Peter Wingfield. (Now I really, really want a SPN/Highlander crossover. Ooooh, Antichrist!Sam/Death!Methos, yes, yes, yes!)
Now begins... you guessed it, the week from hell, redux. Well, not that bad, really. The G-20's gonna be in town on Thursday and Friday, and classes are mostly canceled. Those that aren't? Yeah, I foresee me coming down with a G-20-induced case of swine flu, if you know what I mean. No way am I going anywhere near campus when Michelle Obama is hosting a dinner party for 20 world leaders two blocks away. Traffic and security would be a nightmare. That's not even figuring the press who are prolly gonna be clogging the streets.
Anyway, I finally got to see SPN 5x02.
Oh. Oh dear. Oh my baby boys.
This is a good thing, I firmly believe. The boys need some time alone, time to get perspective, and to remember how much they really mean to one another, and how utterly, thoroughly miserable they were without each other. (Except for how Sam wasn't actually miserable without Dean back in the days when he was emotionally healthy.) Obviously, Show can't keep its two leading characters, whose relationship is the entire foundation of the story, apart for very long. I give it one episode, maybe two. And then there will be a tearful reunion.
That being said, if said tearful reunion does not include Dean looking deep into Sam's eyes and telling him that this whole thing where it's all Sam's fault about the apocalypse? Is not all Sam's fault? Then all my growing goodwill towards Dean is gone, and we're back to me resenting the hell out of him.
Cause seriously. Why is everyone just going along with Sam's massive guilt trip? Yes, I can see where Sam feels guilty. I think he's wrong to, but I can definitely see why he does. But what did he actually do that puts him more at fault than practically anyone else who was even remotely involved? He killed Lilith. He did so in a way that, alright, fine, he can legitimately feel guilty about that, but the actual apocalypse-starting? Was because he killed Lilith. Did he know that killing Lilith would break the final seal? Did Dean's magical innate wisdom mean that he knew that killing Lilith would break the seal? Did Dean have any intention of doing anything other than killing Lilith, given the opportunity? The answer, as you may have noticed, to all of these questions is "no." Both Sam and Dean thought that killing Lilith would stop the apocalypse. Dean's only objections to Sam killing Lilith was the method he was using, and the fact that Sam was going with Ruby instead of him.
Lucifer rising was Sam's fault because Sam trusted Ruby and the angels, and killed Lilith, thinking he was stopping the apocalypse.
It was also Dean's fault for a) breaking the first seal, and b) for being just as taken in re: killing Lilith. It was Azazel, Lilith, and Ruby's faults for engineering the whole thing to begin with. It was Zachariah and Castiel's faults for helping to engineer the whole thing, and facilitating it as they did. It was Chuck's fault for not telling Sam what was going to happen. It was Bobby's fault for not telling Sam and Dean often enough that they're idiots. It was John's fault for raising his kids (Dean in particular) to be codependent freaks who just can't leave the natural order of things alone. It was Mary's fault for getting the whole thing rolling with her deal.
It's the end of the world. There's blame to go around. It's not all Sam's fault. And it pisses me off that no one other than Sam is accepting any responsibility. It's like everyone is wiping their foreheads, saying, "Well, Sam's willing to take all the heat, so I guess that means I'm off the hook." I call bullshit. And Dean should, too. God knows, he's never hesitated to take the blame for stuff he wasn't at all responsible for, why stop now with something that he is at least as responsible for as Sam?
I really didn't mean for that to turn into yet another rant.
Anyway.
Good to see Ellen and Jo again. Ellen, especially. Loved how she chewed Dean out for never calling. Show does love its meta.
Once again, Castiel's scene was mercifully brief. Eyes were rolled over the fact that, oh yeah, the completely random amulet that Sam gave Dean as a Christmas present thirteen years before, and heretofore has had only sentimental significance, is actually a super-special God-hunting amulet. Cute as I thought Dean's reluctance to hand over the amulet was, I am just a tad puzzled at Sam's complete silence during the whole encounter. Funny how Sam seems to cease to exist as a character whenever Castiel's in the room, right? *bitter*
Also: YAY, FOUR HORSEMEN! Death had better be a motherfucking skeleton, that's all I'm saying. That, or played by Peter Wingfield. (Now I really, really want a SPN/Highlander crossover. Ooooh, Antichrist!Sam/Death!Methos, yes, yes, yes!)
